Have you ever been so frustrated, so disappointed, that it almost lit a fire in you?
Not the quiet, tearful kind of grief—but the kind that makes you clench your jaw and think, this isn’t how I want things to be.
I’ve been sitting in that space lately.
There’s a class I want to take—one that could open new doors and create new opportunities. But right now, financially, it’s just not where things are.
And that hit harder than I expected.
Because sometimes the grief isn’t about loss in the way we typically think of it.
Sometimes it’s the grief of not yet.
The grief of I’m ready… but life isn’t lining up.
So I sat in it.
Not avoided it. Not rushed past it. Not tried to spin it into something positive.
Just sat with it.
Because grief isn’t always sadness.
It’s not always tears or heaviness.
Sometimes it shows up as:
Frustration
Anger
Disappointment
Or even feeling completely numb
And here’s what I’ve learned—something I don’t think we talk about enough:
Sometimes grief pushes back.
The more I sat with that disappointment, the more something shifted.
Not into denial. Not into forced positivity.
But into determination.
A voice that says:
“No. This isn’t where this ends.”
Now let me be clear—this isn’t about toxic positivity.
Not every situation turns into motivation.
Not every hard moment has a lesson tied up neatly.
But sometimes—if you give yourself space—grief will show you something important.
What you want.
What matters.
What you’re not willing to settle for anymore.
And from there… you move differently.
So if you’re in that space right now—
frustrated, disappointed, or stuck in a “not yet” moment…
Pause.
Feel it.
Don’t rush yourself out of it.
And when you’re ready, ask:
What is this trying to show me?
Because sometimes grief doesn’t just break you.
Sometimes it builds something stronger.
And even here—especially here—
there is still an abundance of light.
If this resonated with you, you’re not alone in it.
I share more reflections like this each week as we navigate grief in real, honest ways.
With hope and encouragement,
Dawn
Leave a Reply